Much Ado About Nothing

Thursday, May 30, 2002

Beating around the bush

Well I had my interview and Kerowyn's boss was cool just as she said. I took the dufus survey (you know the one where they ask if you think it is ok to be late for work) and came home. I don't know how I fared yet and probably won't until next week. I still have not gone to a temp agency I keep prolonging it, I guess I shouldn't do that since I am not doing so well finding employment........Just made an appt with Superior Staffing.

Excited to spend time with everyone this weekend.......Friday nite and Sunday party.

Paid the rent and the utilities.............now off to do some cleaning and finally finish the laundry.

posted by Arrina - on 4:40 PM | 1 comment

Wednesday, May 29, 2002

So........I have an interview tommorrow with Kerowyn place of business, and I got a call from another business tonight but I doubt it will be anything I want and I want to work now not in 2 weeks. It is out closer to my parents house in Louisville but close to Alliance. They know I am interviewing tommorrow and they aren't jumping on an interview so too bad so sad. I don't have time for fiddling around anymore. I figure if they call they might be able to work me part time. Which I will definitely need.

posted by Arrina - on 8:15 PM | 1 comment

Well did a little more today, groceries, went to the library and brought home some books, and spent a bit of time this morning with Tunch. Having him home part of the day makes it more bearable. He was gone for ages yesterday but I know he needs time to do things he likes to do and spend time with his friends. It is only fair....it isn't his fault I don't have a job to go to right now and it isn't like I have nothing to do either. He was so excited getting to spar as he puts it last night, so how can I get upset about that. I did pout because I was home alone all day doing laundry but I wasn't mad or anything just lonely for him. Any who I am still working on laundry so I better get going again before mildew sets in.

posted by Arrina - on 5:36 PM | 2 comments

Tuesday, May 28, 2002

	I wield a great power, and I wield it with an itchy trigger finger. I am outspoken and very defensive of my friends. Come near any of them, and prepare to get blasted. I am pure of heart, but I have a quick temper. Don't anger me. And if you do, don't be in my way. What's your superpower?

posted by Arrina - on 5:55 PM | 11 comments

you're girl, interrupted. you're fun and friendly, and just a little bit crazy.

take the which prettie movie are you? quiz, a product of the slinkstercool community.

posted by Arrina - on 5:50 PM | 11 comments

Ever feel like you are going to Blow up?

That is how I feel today like there is a volcano about to errupt. Everything is freaking me out....it is hormonal I just know it. I also feel extremely panicked.
I don't even know what would make me feel better. I must've slept forever yesterday until noon then again at 7:30-11:45pm then all night again.

I need a job. I am going to go to temp agencies tommorrow I am going to have to.

I am working on Laundry today a shitload of it. And the usual household duties................mail was unexciting and now I am going to call Ameridebt because I can't pay all these payments anymore I need one pmt and that is it. We'll see what they say probably nothing until I have a job.

posted by Arrina - on 2:56 PM | 1 comment

You're GREED! You like to think money's the most important thing in life, and you want it all to yourself. You're represented by the color yellow.

posted by Arrina - on 9:30 AM | 11 comments

You are 40% evil! [?]

You're more good than evil, but not by much. You've drank straight from the carton of milk in the refrigerator, and maybe kicked the neighbor's cat, but you're still good. Kinda.

posted by Arrina - on 9:25 AM | 11 comments

Find your emotion!

Who are YOU most like?

posted by Arrina - on 9:20 AM | 11 comments

Monday, May 27, 2002

Wasting Time

This a waste time day. I did it I quit my job today, at least I did something. I slept till noon and then I took a shower. What a bum. I am now going to Litehouse to see Tunch he said no one has been in the store to sell to so it is wasted. Maybe we will go see Insomnia tonite. Other than that we need to work on the travel website. Thrilling is it not?

posted by Arrina - on 1:01 PM | 1 comment

Sunday, May 26, 2002

posted by Arrina - on 5:54 PM | 11 comments

Saturday, May 25, 2002

To Hell and Back

I don't have to continue to punish myself by working in an environment I hate. I need to repeat this to myself many times. I love writing checks esp if they are for me, so Accounts Payable can be kinda fun. Unfortunately the environment that this position requires is less than desirable. Lets just say (since poor Kerowyn has heard quite enough hehe) that it isn't going to work to I am back to the drawing board for the time being.

On to more pleasant things....saw Star Wars again, and enjoyed it just as much except I was tired. Missed Cleo! I will go with you when you are ready let me know ok? Yeah I know I am a sci fi geek.

Going to a chix barbeque tonite with my mom. Yearly thing with the Lions Club which my dad is a part of but he is in Fla. he has to stay 2 weeks because his doctor there is going to replace his defibrilator with a new and improved model. It is 5 months overdue, the beeping warning it has, he mistook for his wristwatch malfunctioning.

Dreams last nite are erased already, don't remember.

I am going to go back to sleep I wasn't ready to get up but aikido was ready to go out.

posted by Arrina - on 10:17 AM | 2 comments

Friday, May 24, 2002

Back to Normal

Dreams are back to reasonably normal anyway they are still weird but at least Tunch was in them instead fruitboy. Off to work.

posted by Arrina - on 7:27 AM | 11 comments

Thursday, May 23, 2002

Freaky Shit

Dream last nite: I was married to my ex husband for the 2nd time (boy that would be stupid) and he again decided to leave me for another man (ugly man) and then while I am packing up to leave I find out that he (ex) is pregnant and that when he was married to me the first time he got pregnant and had our baby ( we weren't together for those of you who know the story ) and the son is living with his sister who abuses her children so at the end I am franticly trying to get my son back from the bitch and he isn't helping of course because he is so excited that he is starting his new family.

What the hell? No, I am not eating too late either. Comments?

posted by Arrina - on 7:31 AM | 2 comments

Wednesday, May 22, 2002

Ok sick dream last nite.....I am not sure I should throw this one out but here goes....I was with my uncle and he was very flirtatious with me in the dream and I then realized in the dream that we had slept together and I felt gross about it in the dream but still stayed around him in the dream...ewwwww.
There is no basis to this at all for any reason we get along fine and he is reasonably cool for an older guy hehe. So why would I have a dream like that?

posted by Arrina - on 11:24 PM | 3 comments

i'm a cat.what kinda pet are you?
quiz made by muna.

posted by Arrina - on 6:19 PM | 11 comments

Tuesday, May 21, 2002

Correction, make that 47 people (I counted) and I am currently entering about 100 invoices. Blek!

posted by Arrina - on 5:49 PM | 11 comments

It is just that the there are chart of accounts, depts, divisions, and into the 30's of people that I have to daily be in contact with regarding invoices from all over the building. I truly, even tho I didn't really want an office job and have been whining about it for a week, felt this morning that I was definitely in over my head as far as qualifications. And along with the chart of accounts etc there are sub accounts upon sub accounts.

posted by Arrina - on 1:14 PM | 2 comments

Today it's cooler.........thank goodness. Got overwhelmed today and was on the verge of leaving and then spoke to the controller and he calmed me down and told me to not let it overwhelm me that he thinks I am capable and is as we speak discussing my training with the trainers about not throwing so much at me. I still may find in time that I am truly not qualified to do AP in such a large establishment but until Angelo gets back I will continue to try who knows.

posted by Arrina - on 1:11 PM | 11 comments

Monday, May 20, 2002

Hey, back from my first day back to work....ick. It wasn't horrible but I really didn't enjoy it either. Lots of confusion there.....up to 7:15 am this morning I thought about calling and not going. But I did, the office was very hot as in about 80 degrees, they had a little space heater blasting (it was about 10 degrees cooler in the hallway two feet away) for a while and they kept the doors all closed w/ no ventilation, some people get cold and don't realize that when you have a short sleeve shirt on you cannot remove anything else, but they could put on another layer instead of making others sick (my stomach actually got upset and I had to go to the ladies room) that was the worst part of the day.

I have no idea what to feel but I will survive.

posted by Arrina - on 7:39 PM | 1 comment

Thursday, May 16, 2002

Thanks all for your comments. I am feeling a bit better today, the question is why am I? I haven't had anything different to eat drink or otherwise, see this is what bothers me the mood swings are so drastic. I mean today isn't as drastic as most, but I feel pretty ok today and today is no different than yesterday.

I went and filled out the paperwork for the job I don't want starting Monday! Otherwise I haven't done much of anything today. Kerowyn called (thanks!) to cheer me up. Tunch will be home soon and he will be off tommorrow so I guess I won't be online much tommorrow. I think I am spending way too much time online these days. I guess I am making up for the time I spend on the job.

posted by Arrina - on 5:47 PM | 11 comments

Wednesday, May 15, 2002

The Black Void (Warning: if you are on the edge don't read this it may depress you)

I have been completely unmotivated this week, depressed, bored and wondering why I didn't just start the job this week? Why because I don't fucking want to work that's why. And why don't I? I have no fucking idea, I must be the most unbalanced idiot on the block! The only thing good going on is I lost a few pounds thank god. Why am I cursing like a loon? I guess it is the emphasis that it puts on my confusion. I think that I am depressed again, as in need medication again. I know most people don't think it is good to stay on it or think you need it but I do. All I can say is that when I was on it I felt fairly normal, and for a short time after getting off it (dizzy spells aside) I felt ok, but I think that it is worse again. When I start spending my day in front of the TV, doing nothing, feeling lonely, bored, and not being able to think of a damned thing I want to do esp if it takes effort, I must begin worrying. I am starting to feel that old familiar feeling really strong...it is called self loathing. I was able to get a good job that will pay my bills am I happy about that? Not really. Am I happy I got my house under control a little? No. Don't get me wrong there are things I want to do, but they aren't things I can do easily without hard work, money or time. It is almost as if I have lost all interest in putting forth effort in anything. I had to force myself to leave the house the last few days. I wish at times I were 75 so that I could off myself and no one would miss me and I would be old so it wouldn't look like such a lame out. I guess I am at the point where I am thinking what is the point to life? Is it because I have lost interest in religion or belief in God? I don't even care about figuring it out anymore. I used to want to. I seriously need to go the doctor I think...for those of you who were able to read this without thoughts of suicide, .....opinions? Not that I will listen as I can be pretty stupid and truly believe I am depressed but give it a go.

posted by Arrina - on 8:42 PM | 4 comments

Monday, May 13, 2002

Alot has happened over the weekend. Let's see I got the job from Friday, I don't really want it but accepted it because I need cash. Wishing I lived in Stow at the moment. I am hoping that I feel better about it as the week goes on.

Picked up tickets today for Star Wars Episode 2 for us to see when Tunch is off. I really wish the weather would break for at least one day anyhow. Hoping to clean my carpets this week and do a little more cleaning before going back to work. Slept till noon today haven't done that in about 10 years, but had nothing to wake up to and knew it would be raining again. Doing a bit of Laundry and waiting for Tunch to come home for some company.

posted by Arrina - on 5:50 PM | 1 comment

Thursday, May 09, 2002

Well it was a 1 3/4 hr interview and it was great although I know I don't want to do Accts payable for the rest of my life everything sound real good, if it were more money it would be perfect but somehow I doubt perfection is possible. So I go back Friday at 3 and hopefully he will offer me the job. No word from Joanns.

posted by Arrina - on 4:37 PM | 11 comments

Like the Serendipity idea Clio, I really must buy that.

Got a check for my car damage yesterday, whoo hoo! Permed my hair, talk about knots going to cut it this afternoon. Had an interview this morning went ok we'll see. Just put a call in to JoAnn's to see where I stand with that one. Got some interesting things going on with my computer, hope I don't have a virus. I am thinking about re doing it all, it is driving me bonkers. Dieting is still going alright, not doing to bad. I need to cut the carbs down though. Trying to keep things moving and get things done I have been trying to work on for months........phone call going back for an afternoon interview at 2pm with the AP supervisor where I was at this morning. So much for the haircut until after that. Guess I better get re-dressed and eat lunch.

Tornado Watch out today eeeek not again I hope.....I know unlikely to strike the same place twice but it is still freaky to think about.

posted by Arrina - on 12:46 PM | 11 comments

Monday, May 06, 2002

No word on a job yet today. Turned in my estimate to Allstate for my car. Started my diet AGAIN. Drove by weight watchers saw a meeting so kept going. Other than that did errands and a few things at home. Sent out more resumes for good measure.

Went to Columbus to see my grandmother who is 94 yesterday she seems well for her age. Not very much news there if it hadn't been for my mom talking we may have all just taken an afternoon nap.

Saturday saw "The Time Machine" with Eldan and Kerowyn and their friend. Tunch and I loved the movie it was great, but since it was supposed to be punishment for Tunch for making me watching "Pirana women in the Avacado Jungle of Death", I think although he will say no, that he should have to see another film he doesn't want to see. Figures doesn't it that he would like it.

posted by Arrina - on 8:01 PM | 2 comments

Friday, May 03, 2002

Absolutely nothing to say today, sorry.

posted by Arrina - on 5:33 PM | 1 comment

Thursday, May 02, 2002

Interview today went ok, just hope the job is mine. Other than that just ran errands and stuff still no house cleaning done running out of time.

posted by Arrina - on 8:35 PM | 11 comments

Wednesday, May 01, 2002

Had a good time visiting with Sasha today and a nice dinner thanks Sasha! Tunch was dog tired tonite came home and made him dinner and had to massage "almost" everything. He is out already at 11:30pm early nite for him.

posted by Arrina - on 11:44 PM | 11 comments

So today I am up because I made Tunch make sure I was before he left so I can get back on schedule in the case I start working next week. I have a few errands to run then I will calling Sasha to drop by for a while we haven't visited in quite a while. I still have mounds of things I want to do at the house but I honestly don't know where to start. At least the basement is done except for putting up movie posters, my newest from my NJ friend is Serendipity whoohoo! Her dad owns a video store.

I can hear the buzz saws going outside, they sure are cleaning up fast out there but it is becoming very bare. There were so may large pines that are just gone and leave so much space I hope they plant some more. I also hope that they replace all the missing fences outside the back doors, I feel naked when I walk out it gave some sense of privacy in the back yard.

I need to get my office cleaned out so I can start selling travel come July but at least I have some time for that although I should get it organized now so it is done. Anyone needing travel plans made for cruises, or other trips or even group trips let me know I need the experience and also I have a very experience travel agent helping me so I will be able to make sure things are done properly.

Well let me get going and start the day ......... later!

posted by Arrina - on 10:15 AM | 11 comments